Monday, March 7, 2011

Gibberish


I had a hell of a weekend friends. 

It wasn't good. 

Friday morning my heart broke a little bit (okay a lot) for one of my best friends.  Her life was turned upside down when she received some news (HERE), and it made my heart ache.

Friday evening I found out a girlfriend has just been diagnosed with Acute Lymphoblastic Lymphoma/Leukemia.  My heart broke a little bit more, as my knees buckled beneath me, with this news.

I had a full weekend scheduled, and so I kept going.  Have you ever felt like a pinball?  Like you were being knocked left and right and back and forth...and you weren't really feeling any of it?  Just bouncing, and going where it took you?  That is somewhat how I felt this weekend. 


I just kept going.  I went to the Verispa for another spray tan.  I think I found "my color".  The whole "bronze" tone is completely wrong for me.  I'm too fair.  But the Verispa Clear Level I is a home run!  (ps...if you live in Smalltown, VA and spray tan...Groupon has a great deal for the spray tan place today!!!)

I got dressed up in St. Paddy's Day garb, and went to my club for a Celtic Celebration.  Barbie & Ken and Daisy & her friend came along with TEN and I.  It was fun :)  People kept talking to me, and wanting my attention, and I wasn't really there.  And although I would usually feel bad about that...I didn't this time.

TEN and I went to Barbie and Ken's house after the party to visit in a low key environment.  We had a great time, and I ended up falling asleep on the couch.  I wasn't 100% sure where I was when I woke up, but I was upstairs in a bed at Barbie's.  I think the emotional exhaustion had simply taken it's toll.  I couldn't even get myself home!

Sunday was a day of healing for me.  My soul was given a bit of rejuvination, and my body was given rest.  TEN made an effort to make me laugh throughout the day, and I started to feel my heart soar.  And I've got to focus on continuing along that path.  Because if I fall apart, I'm of absolutely no use to those who really do need me right now.

So, there you have it.

The sun doesn't always shine in T's world, but never you mind...I've still got a tan :)

T

P.S.  I'm not going to tell the stories of my two girlfriends here on my blog.  They aren't my stories to tell.  But, if you believe in prayer...and the strength it gives those that you are praying for...please say a prayer for my two friends.  They are both incredibly strong women, and I believe whole heartedly that they will both recover from the challenges they have been handed.  They will be fine.  Eventually.  But for today...they need our prayers.

17 comments:

LWH said...

Double crap.

T, I'm so sorry for all of the above. I lost a pregnancy in 2002 and it broke my heart. The sad truth is that most folks who haven't been through it don't really "get" it - it' losing a child to the woman, no matter how early in the pregnancy. Just keep loving your friend and praying for her. It will take a long time to heal and it will never leave her.

As you probably know, I've done a lot of work with the Leukemia & Lymphoma Society, including running 3 half marathons and raising a bunch of money for them. My heart breaks to hear about another diagnosis. If you want to talk, or need resource suggestions to help your friend, shoot me a note offline. I'm glad to help however I can. The LLS has a great team in Virginia, and I can hook you up with folks who can get her support and help answer questions. Also, I'm assuming this girlfriend is local (i.e. over in your corner of the Commonwealth.) - don't forget that Massey Cancer Institute at MCV in Richmond is world class. It's worth a trip to get a second opinion on her protocol. UVa is even closer to you and also world-class.

Big hugs to you. You're a wonderful friend, and if I can do something to help YOU help your friends, just ask. In the meantime, know that I'm praying. Hard.

JLN said...

Oh, gosh...I am so sorry! I knew about girlfriend #1, but can't imagine being in either situation...they are both two of my biggest fears. My mom did a 100 mile bike ride for Leukemia a few years ago and that is my goal for next year. I will be thinking about you and your friends and praying that God will help to heal the situation...they do need you, but you also need to take care of yourself!

Lots of hugs!!

xoxo
Jess

Twenty-Something Blonde said...

So so sorry to hear about a sad weekend :( my prayers will be with both your friends! I have had a friend with leukemia and I know the terrible pain it can cause. I ran a half marathon for it last year and plan to do it again. It is hard to be close to, but both survivors and fighters have amazing strength and it's inspiring to be around. I hope you can take as much away from the experience as I was able to. It takes time to get past the pain and shock, but you will learn a lifetime of lessons!

Tiffany and the Munchkins said...

Words always fail me at a time like this. All I can do is offer up prayers since God knows what is in my heart. My heart goes out to you and your friends. Just know I'm praying for all of you!

The Defunct Curator said...

Sorry to hear about your friends. I think it's great to hear, however, that you think they will make it through these challenges. I've been feeling quite similar in public lately, sort of faking a smile and not really able to be my full self. It was helpful to me to read this post and see how you're cheering yourself up.

Deviled Megs said...

I wrote a post a long while back (http://tinyurl.com/6a77yh4)about how my heart breaks and soars for each of my friends that goes through something horrible or wonderful. My Dear T, it just means you are a good friend, and I am sure it is comfort to both of them knowing they have your care, concern, and support.

And you NEED to make a t-shirt with that tan comment, it's brilliant!

Jess said...

I'm so sorry for both your friends. I'm thinking about you and praying for you all!!!

Annie said...

Thinking about you all! SO sad. :(

Tote said...

Oh T, I am so sorry to hear your sad news. I know you will be there for your dear friends. Be strong for them. I will keep them and you in my prayers.

I did take your tag today and joined the fun.

Susan

Love Cocktails and puppydog tails! said...

No words can help right now but just know that Prayers are on the way for your dear friends and for you!

-Ashleigh and her little man Duncan!

Ann said...

sorry to hear about your friends. Prayers for both are on the way

Vynuss said...

T, So sorry to hear about the weekend you've had.
As I've never had the big M, but have known those close to me that have, the only thing I know to do is ((hugg)) and pray. Pray for healing, and pray for strength.
How incredibly sad to have a double dose of bad news. My prayers go to you, Mrs. MFC, and your other friend.
XOXO-
Vy

Sarah Beth - Dixie Gator Gal said...

So sorry about all this sad news. Glad you have a great support system, and a tan. Praying for you and your friends.

Little Miss Can't Be Wrong said...

oh goodness. keeping your special friends in my special prayers.

Elizabeth said...

Thank you for the sweet comment you left me. I will make sure I keep checking in with your blog to see how little Louis is doing.

I'm so sorry to hear about your horrible weekend! I will keep your friends in my thoughts and prayers.

xoxo
Elizabeth

Ashley @ KiwisandCocktails said...

Aw, I am so sorry about all the bad news! Praying for you and them!

TudorCity Girl said...

I am so sorry for the bad news.. Faith they will both be okay is a wonderful thing. There is always hope, no matter how bad things might seem. I heard about someone having stage 4 cancer at only 34 years old the other day. i truly believe she will beat it.
I will pray for both of your friends.