Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Unveiled

(i mastered blogger.  i told it that i would overcome its issues and post this post today.  and i did.  i am awesome.  moving right along...)

This weekend was the Black & White Masquerade Ball here in Smalltown, VA.  My dress came in on time.  It was altered in time.  It fit perfectly.  And I felt like a princess :)


I went with a HUGE group of friends to the event, which included an old face for most of you.  Well, okay, "face" may be the wrong term.  Since I really don't show anyone's face.  Let me re-word that.  An old name was included in the mix.  What name you want to know?  TEN.

Yes, TEN went with us.  Some of you already know the deets.  Some of you don't.  The thing is...we broke up for a reason.  I wasn't a fan of his behavior much of the time.  Others weren't either.  He needed to grow up, and be more respectful of others.  He apparently found some fault with me as well (I KNOW RIGHT?  WHO COULD EVER FIND FAULT WITH ME??  WTF?) 

Apparently I'm overly indepedent.  I don't "need" anyone.  I make it hard for a guy to find his "place" in my life.  I'm demanding.  I expect perfection. 

And this isn't the first time I've heard any of that from someone, I'm ashamed to say. 

So we went our different ways.  We dated other people.  We did other things.  And then life happened.  Things happened.  And we became friends.  And I can't tell you how impressed with the person he has become in the last few months.  I'm cautiously optomistic.  But I'm happy for him.  Because his life will be much happier, and successful, if these changes he's made stick.  And I'm happy for me too.  Because I've always like TEN. I've never found any other guy that I enjoyed spending time with as much as him. So, selfishly, I'm glad he's back in my life.

And we will see.  We aren't giving each other "promise rings" (I kid, I kid, I hope to GOD no one really does that anymore...) or anything.  But you get the point. 

We are friends.  And we shall see.

I'm learning to let myself "need" someone.  Just a little bit.  Like when the wind blew my flagpole off of my house.  I "needed" TEN to use his manskills to make it re-attach to my house. 

And when I was cold the other night walking from the Ball to the cab.  I "needed" to wear TEN's coat. 

Stuff like that.  Baby steps.  But I'm trying.  And I'm sure to always make a big to do, like "OH MY GOODNESS!  ISN'T THAT THE MOST WONDERFUL THING THAT YOU HAVE DONE FOR ME?  YOU HAVE CARRIED THAT TRASH TO MY TRASH CAN, AND I SOOOOOO APPRECIATE THE FACT THAT MY SWEET GIRLIE HANDS WILL NOT HAVE TO BE EXPOSED TO THAT TRASH BAG". 

You understand ;)

But in the meantime, while we're figuring it all out, I think we looked pretty cute at the B&W Ball, wouldn't you say?


T

27 comments:

mrs.mfc said...

Yay for being honest on your blog :)
And yay for posting cute pictures without covering up faces :) And yay for TEN reappearing on the blog.

Through Rose Colored Glasses said...

You looked gorgeous! And... Im sorta excited to see TEN back!

MLD said...

i agree with mrs. mfc! lots of yays! that dress is gorgeous as are you!

ps. sorry for the almost baby spoiler about gossip girl!

Miss Sweet Tea said...

omg!!! yayayayayayaaaaay! i missed the last time you posted real pics (face included) so i'm so excited to see YOU! And TEN! And YOU and TEN TOGETHER!!

Love the dress, it's beautiful!

Twenty-Something Blonde said...

Oh you know I'm a sucker for 2nd and 3rd and 4th chances :) I'm very happy for you for being so happy right now! and your dress looks BEAUTIFUL!

ms. mindless said...

you look amazing. love your dress and love that you look so happy!

Dee Stephens said...

I'm liking the face pictures too. Much more fun and real! Love the dress and the guy :)

sweethomeamy said...

You guys look amazing!! You are beautiful in that dress, girl! And I'm proud of you for taking it slow and enjoying the journey. You guys will figure things out, either as friends or as a couple. :) So happy for you!

Mel said...

Yippie!!!! Hi TEN! You two look fab!

It wasn't until now that I realized that your B&W ball gown could double as a wedding dress! Not that YOU would ever commit a fashion faux pas like that! ;)

Jess said...

Woo!! I wondered if TEN's return would be hitting the blog at anytime..and I'm happy that he has returned in the form of a pretty awesome picture! (Also, you look so pretty!)

Here's to second chances, which I think was well deserved!!

Tote said...

Oh my gosh, a real picture! You look beautiful!! I do love that dress. So this is ten. Pretty cute guy. I like the takeing things slow thing. If it is meant to be, you will know.
Right now you two look happy together! I am happy for you.

MCW said...

Love.

And you know, it is hard to NEED someone, when we have been independent for so long! We are used to being on our own. Glad you two are working on it.

MCW said...

And I hope all of the blogger stalkers don't suddenly show up at your door. I have only had to get a few restraining orders. Ha

Ann said...

I guess I haven't been around long enough since this is the first I've heard of Ten.
You, look fabulous and it sounds like you had a great time.

The Bee Charmer said...

You look fabulous. And you are fabulous. Don't let anybody tell you that they love you when they are simultaneously setting out the things that are 'wrong' with you. The right guy will love your independence!

Annie said...

OMG, yall are presch!!!

You look amazing and he is pretty cute himself! Love the face pictures girl! :)

What's meant to be will be!

Mrs. Kindergarten said...

Oh my stars....faces!
WooooooHoooooooo!
The dress is fabu, I love it.
Y'all look pretty swanky together...Carrie gave BIG multiple chance.....

Love,
Mrs. Kindergarten

Mrs. Kindergarten said...

Oh, most importantly...
How does Louis feel about it all?

Love,
Mrs. Kindergarten

REBrown said...

I love the dress!

City Dreamer said...

YEAHHHH!!!! I love your pictures! You guys look amazing! :-D And I'm glad that TEN is still sticking around. I was cautiously optimistic as well and I'm glad to see things are moving in a good direction.

YAY!!!!

Deviled Megs said...

Love this post. Love.

CT Cupcake said...

love love love the dress!

Whitney and the Preppy Puppy said...

Yay, T! You look beautiful and TEN is quite handsome as well. I'm glad you're taking your time and seeing where the world takes you. Has Louis been glad to have him around again?

garden state prep said...

Your dress looks stunning and you look gorgeous!

Little Miss Can't Be Wrong said...

here's to taking things slow... it is a GREAT idea!

Jenny DB said...

OK so at first I was going to give you shit for your 'confession' that TEN came with "US" ... and then i read a little more and i suppose you kindove sortove came clean :-) OH and what's this?? Now we get to see your gorgeous face here too???? Skittleglitter!

Peaches said...

You look gorgeous! LOVE the dress and the hair. :)

And sometimes people just need a little more time to grow up.